I'm a Warrior...

I'm a die-hard... You want to know why I'm so sure of it?

I've found out that i don't belong in this world... I'm not in line with this world... here's no place for me... that's the reason why i'm so angry about this shit here... I can't make another move...

and the point is...

i'll never give up... it would be a shame to give up,... it would break my proud... so i can't give up... so the only way is to fight... fight for an easy way through this fucked up "life"... and so i discoverd my destiny,... to be a warrior,...

the chinese think living the way of the warrior is a very lonely thing... sometimes i agree with that but on the otherside i think i'm not alone,... i feel lonely because i don't carry love in my heart in the moment... no love for noone or anything... that's another point i've discovered few days ago... so i decided to look for a hobby... i've found something but i don't know if it suit me... so i'll write about this later on...

i also decided to look out for a new girlfriend... first of all i'll explore the area which is surrounding laakirchen... try to get the car on a friday evening and explore the bars and pubs and so on... got a friend who i had told this and he said he'll go with me... i'm looking forward to it... will be fun... he's a warrior too... he's 33 years old... he's kind of a soulmate... i'm very happy he moved to laakirchen... he moved 3 months ago...

well... think that's all for the moment...

bye folks...


with greetz

- schally

he said...

i'm gonna buy a gun
and start a war...

if you can tell me something worth fighting for...


if you can tell me something worth fighting for...

what's worth fighting for?

is it worth fighting for your love, if your love is loving another?

is it worth fighting for your rights? do you know what your rights are?

is it worth fighting for your feeling? what if your feeling is wrong... what if your intution is deluding you?

is it worth fighting for a woman you've already lost?

what is worth fighting for?

is it worth fighting for your attitude? what if your attitude is wrong?

what's wrong with me/us?

i don't know a reason which is worth fighting for?!?! do you know a reason?

the text from coldplay with which i had started goes something like this...

he said:" i'm gonna buy this place and burn it down... i'm gonna buy this place and see it burn,... i'm gonna buy a gun if you can tell me something worth fighting for..."

intressting isn't it?

most times i think of the sentence:" i'm gonna buy a gun and start a war,... if you can tell me something worth fighting for..."

dunno why...

perhaps because i don't know any things which are worth fighting for in the moment...

i really dunno things which are worth fighting for in the moment...

the only thing i'm fighting for is to get through this stupib fiftht class of this fucked up htl... i'm so pissed on of it in the moment... i'm really on the end of my rope by now... and i dunno how i get trough the last four years... i think i've got something like the "burn out syndrom"... every step that i take is so hard for me...

if someone ask himself why i'm writing in english by now... the reason is to improve my english skills in free writing... i'm used to get an english test with some grammar questions and a listning comprehension but i have seen this test that i'm not able to write a free text in english without houndreds of mistakes... so i try to improve my english skills here in an enviroment where i can test my english skills without any competition... where i can read it myself a 100 times and learn from myself...


with this bullshiten sentences my entry has to end...

with greetz

- schally